Can I Go Now?

Goodness!! God does not need to do any more pressing on my heart to tell me that my treasure truly is somewhere deep in the heart of missions. My heart is leading my mind/thoughts every which way lately, and I just do not know where to go from here. All I know is that I NEED to get out of here! I desperately need to be somewhere where I am fully relying on God for my everyday needs, and somewhere were the only thing to do is love on people who need love and worship our GREAT God and Father.

Why can't I just be out of high school already so that I can just go to the Home Sweet Orphanage in Uganda, and spend as long as I want there?!? My heart hurts every time I think of the fact that I could and SHOULD be there right now. But no, a little girl can't just get on a plane by herself and travel around the world to a place she has never been! Really? Do the people around me not remember the God they serve and worship! My God would protect me, and He would lead me wherever He would want me to go.

WHY WON'T YOU JUST LET ME GO?!?!?



 

Just a few minutes ago, I was reading back at my blog posts from this time last summer, and I was brought to tears just thinking back at the feelings and the passion I had last year to go to Uganda.

I will go to Uganda.

I will serve God where He leads me.

I will do what He asks of me, no matter where I am at in my life.

I will go no matter what the people around me say.

 

This is what God has called me to do,

And I must listen to Him,

For I serve Him.

 

 



Earlier today, I was reading my Bible, and I went to my computer to crosswalk.com and I searched "go", to search for all the times it uses that word in the Bible. I made it go to just the New Testament times it is used, and almost every time in the four Gospels, it was Jesus telling the disciples to go and do something to greater God's Kingdom. Go get food for the people. Go find this sinful person for they are going to eat with me. Go and make disciples of all people.
I came to Acts 9:6, and this is when Saul becomes a Christian, and this verse says, "'Now get up and go into the city, and you will be told what you must do.'"
Saul/Paul was not Told what he was going to be doing, he was just told to GO! Shouldn't this be how our everyday lives should be as Christ followers? Just waking up and asking God to lead us where He wants us to go/do. Just going into our city and town listening for God to tell us what to do next. He does not have to tell us our itinerary every morning for the day ahead of us, He just tells us to go, and we need to listen and obey. Who would want to disobey the God and King of the universe?!?

2 Timothy 4:2,5

"Preach the Word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke and encourage-with great patience and careful instruction.

But you, keep your head in all situations, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, discharge all the duties of your ministries."

Beautiful and Dearly Loved

                                 As I was reading my sweet friend Avery's blog (http://nothoughtforthemorrow.blogspot.com/), she ended her last post with this statement:      

 "Don't walk through life accepting everything the world throws at you because the world spits in the face of your sweet Jesus."

 

 

 

As I continued throughout the week working on my Beauty By the Book Bible study, I came across probably my favorite, most cherished day so far. I came to day two, and it was astounding. We read Proverbs 7:4-27 which shows us the characteristics of the "immoral woman" of Proverbs. If you are not familiar with the book of Proverbs, it talks a lot about different characteristics of women, and this week we are studying the immoral woman. So as I was saying, we read this section of Proverbs, and I encourage you to read it and study it.

 As Christian girls, we are to be presenting ourselves, pretty much as if Jesus was standing right beside us. Now doesn't that make you think of that time you wore those short shorts to impress a guy, or wore your hair in a special/different way hoping to get that one guy's attention that you have been crushing on? I admit to thinking those same things. But as I am reading this part of Proverbs, it talks about how the woman entices the young man, and she brings him into her home with smooth words "like honey". At the end of the chapter, Proverbs 4:26-27, it tells us that this woman has brought so many men to ruins, and her house leads to the grave. But leading a guy into her house is not the only way she brings him down, she also "catches" him by the way she is dressed. Proverbs tells us that this woman dresses seductively and is rebellious and loud.

You may find yourself now asking yourself "Okay, so the Bible tells us who Not to be like, so where does it tell us How to dress and act?" Ah, the Bible is all inspired and breathed into the making by God, so He would never leave us hanging with people's lives at stake. You can find the answer to this question in 1 Timothy 2:9-10 and 1 Peter 3:3-4. To sum up these verses, I wrote this down in my book, "God does not want us flashing around our Miss Me jeans, our James Avery jewelry, or our newly styled hair to get attention from guys, not that it is wrong to Have this stuff, but instead of showing off our stuff, we should have a gentle and quiet spirit, doing good deeds for the Lord, because the Bible tells us, that is PRECIOUS in God's eyes! As my Bible study put it, "Flirting, flattering, and flaunting it. That's how the immoral woman attracts guys."

 

So, how has all of this affected me??

It has affected me in a crazy way!!

The other night I went to a swim party, of course right after I read about how swim suits are usually seen as a stumbling block to guys. I was like freaking out! I DID NOT to be a stumbling block, and I for sure did not want to be seen as the immoral woman! Boy, did Satan put those thoughts in my head!! I stopped right were I was in my room, stopped getting ready for the party (already running late), and I just prayed. I prayed that God would show me if I was anything like the immoral woman. All He said, was "Don't worry. Don't I tell you so many times in My Word, NOT to worry or be anxious about Anything?" Immediately, that fear of being a stumbling block was gone. I no longer felt like even just talking to a guy at the party would be a bad thing. Haha! Silly, I know, but I was seriously worried about this! I just really really love when God calms me! He is such a loving and caring God, but I can never forget who He is! He is the King over all kings, and LORD over all of the universe! Sometimes I just forget that! Even as He is in command over everything, He still takes time to talk to me, and comfort me.

 

 

Isaiah 41:10, 13

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

  For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear;             I will help you."

Run then Look

“If you have good thoughts, they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely.”

-Roald Dahl

Recently, God has been working in my heart, changing and shifting me into a woman that looks and acts like Him, and treats others like Jesus does. I have started a Bible study with my girls and the study is called Beauty By The Book. The study is going to show us in the Bible how important it is to guard our hearts from the world's view of "beauty", and concentrate on how God views us as Christian women. This has been tugging on my heart lately because I have been struggling with comparing myself with "it-girls" of the media, while God says we are made in his image.

This study is not only good for myself, but I know it is going to be a great experience to go through the book with my closest friends.


Last night (June 3, 2013), a few of us girls went over to my friend Avery's house and we had a mini Bible study/deep-talk time. It was a great time for us to talk.
Our discussion lead to purity/modesty/relationships, and it was such a God thing, because us three (Tylar, Avery, and I) all have the same views about relationships.

           Now, I have really been praying and talking to God about the whole relationship thing, and I believe that I am at a place where I have placed my life completely in His hands, and if God-My Father puts an amazing Christian guy in my path during high school, then who knows! Maybe God has something for me to learn from this guy! I am not limiting myself to absolutely no dating, but I have decided that I am not just going to throw myself out to the first guy who, even just a little, shows interest.

I was reading Proverbs 31, and this chapter of the Bible characterizes an "ideal, godly woman". My favorite verses from this chapter where these:
V.20- "She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy."
V.26- "She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue."
V.30- "Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."

"You're everything I ever wanted, everything I ever needed. You've ravished my heart."
-My Dear by Bethel Music

Why have a guy when you can have the King?!?
It has recently become very very important to me, to know who I am in God. To know my identity in Him. Now I do not know about you, but I have heard that said so many times. But then the other day, it clicked when I read a quote that talked about, if you run fast towards God, and look to your left or right and see someone running in the same direction, that is a man worth your heart. This quote made me realize that I just need to do what God wants me to do, which is to love Him with ALL that I have, and to love others exactly like He loves me.
So this got me thinking, that I do not Need a boyfriend in my life right now! What I really need is to strengthen my relationship with God to the point when I do have a boyfriend, he and I are both able to always put God before our relationship and make HIM center.


"Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins."
1 Peter 4:8