Breathe in and out, give it to God, and MOVE on.

"Whatever is worrying you right now, forget about it. Take a deep breath, and trust God."-unknown

Lately..... worry has overwhelmed my life. Dealing with high school drama/emotions and just having to go through the daily challenge of trying to have a Christ-like attitude and have actions like He would have.
Man! It is so hard!

To start, the title of this post is something that I have had to continuely tell myself throughout the day. The main thing that the title is referencing to, is the struggles of high school. Something you may not know, is that I attend a Christian private school. I say Christian, but if you came and stayed for a day in a class, and socialized with the students, you would most likely quickly see, that most of us really do not act like Christians. I am not saying that I do not do this, because I will admit that I have found myself gossiping and having a bad attitude about things, when Christ calls us to be like Him and live pleasing to Him. And gossiping is NOT pleasing to Him..... While in one of our classes, you would see that we pray at the beginning of every class, but lets be honest, most of us are not really praying, we are just trying to get through the class and to the end of the day. One BIG thing that you would notice would be, that we have a chapel service every Thursday morning! I truly enjoy this! This is what gets me through the long week of school! We have a praise team that comes and sings usually three songs, and let me tell you, our praise team is AMAZING! This is always my favorite part! Who wouldn't want to be able to come to school and be able to worship FREELY with your family in Christ! I wish I was able to say "..be able to worship freely with your family...and not be judged by anyone around you." Oh you do not know how much I wish to be able to say that! But I simply can not because it is not true! I personally think that people are fearful of being judged by the other "Christians" around them, and that is why they do not show emotion or "get into" the worship! Sorry, but not sorry...it is the truth! It was not until this year that I felt more secure in my relationship with God that I was able to raise my hands during the worship without worrying about what the girls behind me thought.
After the worship portion of chapel, we have an arranged speaker come and speak. This is always fun too because I know that whatever the speaker is talking about, God wanted us to hear, on that day, at that time, and that the speaker is telling us about something that was on his heart! While some of us are enjoying this time of worship and fellowship, other students are too busy studing for a test later that day, or sleeping... yes sleeping...
A few years ago, this same thing was happening, and our principle told us that we had a choice that day...we could either go to chapel, or go to a study hall. yeah, well most people went to chaple because they did not want to be "those people" who did not go to chaple. so that did not work so well. All I can think to do, is to pray for our school. WE SERIOUSLY NEED A REVIVAL!!! Pray with me? Please and Thank you! :)




The other emotions behind the title of this post, are the struggles of going through high school wanting to be a stronge Christian, and wanting to be close with not only God, but also other people who also want to be close to Him. Yes, even in my small Christian school, this is very difficult. My struggle with this, started by losing a close friend just because I went and talked to someone that she did not like. But I would not get into that on this blog. But aside from that, in losing a close friend, it made it so hard to want to be close with God. UNTIL He showed me WHY He did it, and now I see! :) haha:)
Along with losing friends because of Christ, you can also be put in a position where you do not "fit in" with some of the other people, not because you feel "better" than them, but because, when you hang out with them, your life no longer revolves around Christ. When your life is not focused on Christ, but focused on material things (how you look..boys..drama..gossip), you become deaf to hearing God calling you back to Him. When you finally realize what you have done, and come Sprinting back to God, He accepts you like you never left! And in HIS arms, is where you can breathe in and out, and move on.

P.S. Only in HIS arms, is it possible to completely move on and not worry about the other people around you. :)




"The highway to hell is broad, and it's gate is wide for the many who choose that way. But the gateway to lofe is very narrow and the road is difficult and only few ever find it."
Matthew 7:13-14